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[20 Jun 2005|10:47pm] |
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so many things have happened since i have written in this. schools's over, i'm done for the moment. i am starting to do my spanish and russian stuff... everywhere i turn around there is a sign telling me that i am going in the right direction. i want to just be done... i dont' know what i'm going to do or where i'm even going yet but i have faith that everything will work out.
i'm going to go eat.
love.
laila tov.
(lilah tov?) lol i love you charlotte.
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| i did absolutely nothing and it was everything i thought it could be |
[30 Apr 2005|03:13am] |
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i am hungry. very very hungry. and i'm waiting for johanna to call. tonight was very random... i think something was telling me not to go out tonight. oh well. i'm watching office space with nicole and it's greeeeat.
finals almost over... and that makes me happy. i'm planning on doing a lot of nothing. all summer. well, nothing and helping nicole recover. i want to go to illinois and to north carolina and virginia. something tells me that is not going to happen because i have to work and stuff so i can get a car that doesn't take 94 turns to start it. i'm not bitter.
i'm going to sleep now i think.
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| lies lies lies yeah. |
[25 Apr 2005|06:53pm] |
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finals = death to susan. no way am i taking so many classes again at one time. i can't deal with all this stress. and Hindemith can go screw a tree.
side note: i wish i had a friend like will truman. moving on.
so i don't know why boy will not talk to susan. i refuse to keep apologizing for something that really isn't that big of a deal. why do i care so much about him? i can't understand why i'm dealing with this type of stress. i'm not going to call him, that i will be stubborn about.
but it still hurts so much.
anyway, well. i must go. i heart you all. kisses.
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| Wow updating.... |
[18 Apr 2005|03:39pm] |
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what's happening you four people that read my livejournal?
I haven't updated in so long i don't even know where to start.
i am a nicole's house... i've been spending a lot of time with her and johanna... right now they are molesting each other... or something... yeah. i love my friends.
i'm ready for school to be over with. i don't know how much longer i can take this. i'd rather sit around and discuss the complexities of wal-mart all day.
I haven't been doing so well lately. i have too much to do and not enough time to do it.
and the boy problems never cease. i swear it's nun time. charlotte, kaylie... we need to unite. field trips, anyone?
i think it's time to search for a new job. i can't take the ghetto shoe store much longer. any suggestions?
until next time....
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| it's been a ridiculous amount of time... |
[02 Feb 2005|11:40am] |
but i'm now updating.
since i last updated, a number of not so important or exciting things happened.
Christmas flew by faster than i thought it would but it left me tired and very much like scrooge.
i'm thinking i'm going on a sabbatical from dating. and then maybe it will happen without heartbreak or annoyance like it has every other time.
i've discovered that i'm frivilous and stupid.
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| in other wooooordsssssss iiiiiiiii looooovvveeee . . . you |
[08 Dec 2004|11:48am] |
i've been working entirely too much and it doesn't look like i'm going to finish any time soon.
oh well lots of money for me.
recital tomorrow... and the concert. i'm slightly worried about the concert, we've been terrible lately.
wish me luck.
if you love me, recital, 1:00 ashmore.
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[06 Dec 2004|11:43am] |
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i so totally found a car a want.
too bad i can't afford it. :-(
rae came to visit me at work a few days ago and totally made me incredibly happy.
(mexican goth guys? ok....)
charlotte.... come home soon. i know this town in boring and stuck in an outdated, if you're not 21 there's nothing to do bubble but... i miss you. btw what in the world do you want for hanukah?
i miss going to swing night. i should really get back to going.
i wish i was the same person i was a few years ago. i've been falling away from everything i am for a long time and i'm tired of it. i'm tired of all of it. to quote reese roper... "my heart is cold and black but i just don't think i care..."
peasant... i miss you. a lot. what is a queen without her peasant? nothing, i tell you nothing! (ps what do you want for Christmas?)
here, we'll do this the easy way.
leave me a comment with what you want for Christmas. all of you. even the ones that read this that don't have livejournals or don't ever comment. :-)
~♪♫♪
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| the angels' wings will cover you tonight |
[29 Nov 2004|11:36am] |
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hallelujah.
mi abuela, one of the best people i've ever known, died on monday.
all my mom's brothers and their families came over for thanksgiving and the funeral... it wasn't a fun weekend.
however, i still feel grateful for being able to know her as long as i did. she was born in 1927. wow. that's a long time.
i still don't know how to feel... seeing her not alive and kicking was a hard experience. if you ever wondered where my stubbornness came from, you never met her. she definitely was a stubborn, loving, sometimes hot tempered, wonderful woman. i thank God for the time i got to spend with her.
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| this is the last time... |
[15 Nov 2004|11:16am] |
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man i must be the most naive person ever.
last night was the end. i did what i had to do and now i'm done.
why do i hurt so much though?
and why do i have a feeling that the ghost of this situation is going to continually come back and haunt me?
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| one word... drama. |
[10 Nov 2004|11:36am] |
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yeah.
i hate boys.
*here's a note before i finish ranting* - for all of us having relationship problems... it will get better. and there will be better out there eventually.
hate them. no i don't, but i'm not very happy with them right now.
maybe the next time i get screwed over i'll be happier with them.
i want him to hurt as much as he hurt me.
on a better note... i'm going to tallahassee to visit charlotte today. i'm giddy.
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| it wasn't us who screwed up the vote count this time! |
[03 Nov 2004|11:15am] |
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ohio did it!
i'm so glad election time is over. i would be happy if the mudslinging and the ridiculous jabberings of the mindless misinformed masses would stop forever. if you don't know the facts, don't try to argue. if you actually did research to back up your opinions i would like to hear it.
rant over.
geez today is a sick day if i ever had one. :-( i'll live. i'm too busy to be sick though. i have so much to do and i need to be healthy for the weekend.
i miss charlotte. and i think rae and i are going to visit soon... i'm excited.
gah. that's all i have to say. gah.
until next time.
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| let's just drive... take a deep breath |
[27 Oct 2004|11:36pm] |
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and i swear everything will be alright
let's just drive until it gets us somewhere, even if it takes all night... let's just drive.
i'm really lost right now. school is directionless, work is just work, relationships... let's just not go there. i'm tired of looking. why can't i just wake up one day with everything and not have to worry about it? i guess that defeats the purpose of living. maybe i'm just too lazy for my own good.
here's some recent questions of mine.
why in the world do we always do things when we don't want to do them?
why is it that i can't make up my mind about anything lately?
why do i keep up this attempt at a life i don't want?
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| i'm not a witch, i'm your wife |
[27 Oct 2004|10:43am] |
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ten points for whoever recognizes the quote.
i've been listening to a lot of old stuff recently. it makes me happy. early 90's music... what a jewel.
thanks to rae and molly i am very happy about the denison marrs cd release that i will be attending. and i'm out of time.
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| i think i should update. |
[25 Oct 2004|10:45am] |
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i am tired.
of school, of working, of everything.
i quit one job, so now i'll have more time. then maybe i can pick up what's left of the ruins of the beginnings of this school year.
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| this day's been crazy but everything's happened on schedule |
[18 Oct 2004|10:25am] |
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so yeah this is my first entry in a month. reason being... stupid hurricanes like to take away my power and cable and phone lines. i just got my cable back a few days ago, and i still don't have a phone. it took twelve days to get my power back and i had an inch and a half of water on the floors of two rooms of my house.
enough complaining. God totally provided and kept me and most of the people i love safe in this storm. no more about it.
i don't know how to deal with everything going on in my life right now. truthfully, right now i'm being tested to the extreme. why is it that it had to be her... she's already been through so much, car accidents, cancer the first time... why her, why again? and why leukemia? i just don't understand it. i guess i don't have to but it doesn't seem fair.
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| it's that late 90's emo way. |
[13 Sep 2004|10:38pm] |
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it's amazing how good to feels to be somewhere and know that it's right where you need to be. sitting here on her computer with empire records on the tv behind me... i don't think there could be anything better. spending time with your best friend might be the best thing in the world.
quote of the day: "before he hurts himself, he should be put down." - randito.
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| it's that feeling comign back again turning earth around and pounding sirens in my head |
[13 Sep 2004|11:30am] |
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how did trip over the same rock the person in front of me tripped on? i'm an idiot.
that said, it's almost time for the hurricane! none of the sources will agree on where they think it's going, and it changes so much that i'm just ready for it to hit or not. i don't want to hear about it, and it's not supposed to be a category 5 by the time it gets here, the gulf has been cooling off lately. whateva.
i'm thinking of adding another major to my music major seriously now. since my classes are paid for by the state of florida, i think it will be an easy addition to my class load after these two semesters pass. problem though: i don't know how hard it will be to find good language classes at udub, they certainly don't have many at pjc. anybody have any suggestions?
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[10 Sep 2004|11:20am] |
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doc coleman's hymn on the board is my hope is built on nothing less. and the words aren't up there, but i know them still...
my hope is built on nothing less than Jesus' blood and righteousness
i dare not trust the sweetest frame but wholly lean on Jesus' name...
on Christ the solid Rock i stand, all other ground is sinking sand
all other ground is sinking sand.
(i'm up to my neck in sinking sand)
my faith is like shifting sand, changed by every wave
my faith is like shifting sand, so i stand on grace....
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| patrick has inspired me to update! |
[30 Aug 2004|11:50am] |
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today is august 30, and wednesday is my birthday. ♪♫ yay.
i'm supposed to be doing work in my computer class right now, but livejournal has become more important.
my life has changed dramatically since my last entry, and if i had a month to type i might explain how and why. i should take the time to think about how things have changed. right now i don't have time to think or even eat most of the time. getting a job was such a blessing, but now i don't have any time. i go to school until two, and then work until 7, then homework and practice time, and sleep if i can get that lucky. i need a life or something.
i need to get out and away from here, from everything i know. once i leave for big college, instead of this junior stuff... i think i'm going to take a semester abroad in Spain. hang out with my family over there, go to school, change my life... sounds good to me. what do you think?
╚why do they have to be so stupid?
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